Something has happened to me two days ago that made me stop and reassess my life... Somebody who I never thought I would correspond with, let alone consider befriending, has chosen to be the bigger person and decided to bridge the gap that wasn't even supposed to be there in the first place.
God sure has a whacked sense of humor...
My innate paranoia is screaming to just ignore the messages and just continue with being blissfully ignorant of the truth but I've always believed in giving people second chances so... here we are... we're writing to each other and dare I say, becoming friends...
The upside is, I've finally let go of some of the misplaced aggression I've been carrying inside my heart for the last couple of months... the downside is, I'm finally realizing that I have been blindsided by love once again. And it hurts.
It hurts because, after everything that I've gone through for him, all I have to show for it is a broken heart. Oh, we're friends and all that but that fact does not make me immune to the pain.
Gah. It still continues to amaze me how women... SMART women, women who are normally dominant, independent and successful in their own right, would permit a man to demoralize, dehumanize and degrade them. It's just mind-boggling.
It pains me that women would rather fight over a man and waste precious time agonizing over whether or not they are the only one in a their men's lives or if they're one of many. And it continually surprises me that there are still women out there who choose to allow the men in their lives to step all over them than risk losing them.
I know this because I've been one of these women. There are times that I'm still one of these women. It's painful, heart-wrenching and shameful but it's the truth.
I live with this truth everyday.
To you, you know who you are... thank you for taking the first step in trying to bridge the gap that really shouldn't have been there in the first place... I really hope that you and I have grown from these experiences and have learned our lessons. And... seriously... I hope that this is a sincere effort on your part... because once I consider you a friend, you've got me on your side a hundred percent and then some... I'm just that kind of person...
Bleh... life is so full of drama, innit? :)
God sure has a whacked sense of humor...
My innate paranoia is screaming to just ignore the messages and just continue with being blissfully ignorant of the truth but I've always believed in giving people second chances so... here we are... we're writing to each other and dare I say, becoming friends...
The upside is, I've finally let go of some of the misplaced aggression I've been carrying inside my heart for the last couple of months... the downside is, I'm finally realizing that I have been blindsided by love once again. And it hurts.
It hurts because, after everything that I've gone through for him, all I have to show for it is a broken heart. Oh, we're friends and all that but that fact does not make me immune to the pain.
Gah. It still continues to amaze me how women... SMART women, women who are normally dominant, independent and successful in their own right, would permit a man to demoralize, dehumanize and degrade them. It's just mind-boggling.
It pains me that women would rather fight over a man and waste precious time agonizing over whether or not they are the only one in a their men's lives or if they're one of many. And it continually surprises me that there are still women out there who choose to allow the men in their lives to step all over them than risk losing them.
I know this because I've been one of these women. There are times that I'm still one of these women. It's painful, heart-wrenching and shameful but it's the truth.
I live with this truth everyday.
To you, you know who you are... thank you for taking the first step in trying to bridge the gap that really shouldn't have been there in the first place... I really hope that you and I have grown from these experiences and have learned our lessons. And... seriously... I hope that this is a sincere effort on your part... because once I consider you a friend, you've got me on your side a hundred percent and then some... I'm just that kind of person...
Bleh... life is so full of drama, innit? :)
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