Staying Alive

Egads I feel like crap. Also, I don't think my brain's working so...

• I like this latest layout. I'm gonna stick with it for good. Or until I get a bug up my ass and decide to change things around again.
• My insomnia is back with a vengeance. It's bitchier and meaner than ever. Christ in cucumbers.
• I think the only thing that can lift me up is a new toy. Someone buy me one please. I'm almost on the verge of agreeing to anything if it could get me a toy. Seriously.
• I don't think anyone believes me when I say I'm sad.

My ankle still hurts like a mother.

It's time.

Changes have been made. Those who matter have been notified.

If It Ain't Broke...

Here's the week in review:

• Got nookie? Damn right. So there.
• Sprained my right ankle. Hurts like a mother. Possibly nookie related. Or not.
• Discovered a lot. Learned a few lessons. Made a coupla resolutions.
• New car smell. Mmmmm.
• Made a new blog. Will be redirecting everyone there soon.
• Got nookie? Damn right. So there.

Just watch me grin.

But Ummmm...

So we're back to discussing toys. Sometimes I think, I'm better off NOT making any friends and just surround myself with plush.

Just my kid, my mom and my plush. No more people pretending they're your friends but really all they're doing is marking time and then BAM, they're gonna stab you in the back, kick you on the head and leave you on the ground bleeding to death.

This has been such a bitter week. I haven't had my Garver fix in weeks. And that's just not right. I gotta have my Garver fix!

I just went off-tangent again. I do that all the time.

I can't seem to stay focused on anything. All I know is that I hurt. I hurt and I can't seem to find a way to end the pain.

Stick a fork in me, I'm done.

"We have to distrust each other.

It is our only defence against betrayal."

-Tennessee Williams

So freaking true.

Just when I thought it's safe to come out and trust again. WHAM! I find myself hit between the eyes once more.

Jesus ain't got nothing on me. At least He had dinner out with friends and a kiss before Judas stabbed Him in the back. I got nothing. Zip. Nada. Zilch. Damnit.

Human beings suck donkey ass.

I know I sound a little vague. The full details of the betrayal will be posted on livejournal.